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Back from Hiatus
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Back from Hiatus

Deby Ciui (Chewy)1 Comment

I’m going to be perfectly honest. I completely forgot about the existence of this blog… I’ve still been paying for it, but totally forgot about it. Until today.

While spending time praying with my sisters, a regular phone occurrence that my mom started when she was still alive, during that prayer God reminded me of the existence of this blog and I wondered if I could give it new life (again).

Why did I forget you may ask? Well, because life got in the way. It has been almost 1.5 years since my last post. Since then so much has happened, among which: I have graduated with my bachelors degree, my husband got a new job and went back to school, and I am working on getting started with my 3rd year of homeschooling my two girls. Did I mention I still work full time? I have so much to do, and only 24 hours in the day to do it and I need divine help to get me through it all.

If you’re a tired, overwhelmed, and overstimulated mom trying to figure out how to get things done and finally have a little bit of quiet, stick around. We can share in our struggles together and maybe even learn from each other. It’s a roller coaster of a ride, being a mother, and you might feel like you will never get ahead or that no one sees all that you do. But you’re not alone. None of us are.

image with bible verse on it that says Her children rise up and call her blessed: her husband also, and he praises her: "Many daughters have done well. but you excel them all." Proverbs 31:28-29
Birth and Loss and Memories
Christian Momma · Life

Birth and Loss and Memories

Deby Ciui (Chewy)Leave a comment
Mom and Anastasia, Thanksgiving 2018

As we have passed and celebrated my Emily’s 3rd birthday I can’t help but think about my own mom. You celebrate birthdays and you celebrate birth but there’s nothing like going through a loss to make you face your own mortality. I’ve been thinking about mom a lot these past few days, its been over a year and a half since she passed and I was thinking about her a lot yesterday and honestly miss having her to talk to. She was my biggest supporter and encourager and my role model. She taught me so much and I wasn’t ready to lose her, but I don’t think you can ever be ready to lose someone.

Experiencing loss as a Christian offers you solace, you know that they are in a better place and are much happier than we are back here, but as humans we are also trying to learn to cope with being left behind.

Mom and Emily, Thanksgiving 2020

Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy.

John 16:22

There’s a confliction with being happy that they are in a better place but at the same time sad about them being gone. For a long time after she passed the girls would ask on a nightly basis to see pictures and videos of her. Now, as time goes back the pictures get older and there’s no more new ones. No more new memories can be created with her, all we can do is think back fondly on the memories we have made and that pushes me to make more memories together with my girls while I am still here. To show them, to teach them, to take more pictures with them. I strive to become their role models the way that my mom was for me.

Me and my girls
My mother is so full of joy and life. I am her child. And that is better than being the child of anyone else in the world. 
- Maya Angelou
Journaling
Christian Momma · Life

Journaling

Deby Ciui (Chewy)1 Comment

In one of my classes there was a section speaking about your Emotional Intelligence. It touched on the topic of being self-aware and of what you can do to learn more about yourself and one of the things it recommends is journaling a little bit every day. Every day you take a moment to productively journal then after doing it for sometime, you can go back and by reading it can learn a little bit about yourself and can identify trends that you may need to improve on.

I’ve been journaling for as long as I can remember. I have journals dating back to my early teenage years (yikes, those are embarrassing). My journals have evolved with times much like everything else. I have gone from keeping a diary record of everything that had happened during that day and I’ve moved passed the days where I did nothing but vent and complain about the stresses of the day. Now a days my journal doubles as a place where I write my thoughts, vent frustrations, plan, and write out my prayers. Sometimes when I’m trying to meditate on God’s plan for my life, or trying to go to Him in prayer it is easier for me to do it by writing in my journal. The best part, is having this written testimony that I can go back and see just how much He has answered my prayers.

I write because I don’t know what I think until I read what I say.

Flannery O’Conner